Leaps of Consciousness

Anxiety has a secret. It’s an invitation to look at our thinking and contains huge potential for personal growth.

Two books come to mind: Susan Jeffers 'Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway, and 'I am not my mind' from Eckhart Tolle's Power of Now, which implies our thoughts are not real and not 'me'.

Where could these thoughts come from?

They come from an ancient survival machine with additions from our own trauma and that inherited from our family. However, our immediate reaction is often to run away from negative thoughts and welcome positive ones. Paradoxically, negative thoughts contain a silent message to examine our thinking, but it is harder to stay with the fear, look inside, walk towards it, and ask about it.

In Iain McGilchrist’s The Master and his Emissary he argues that the survival thoughts come from the emissary, the left brain which is: insecure, male, and uses either/or and sequential thought. While the master is the right side: feminine, both/and, sees the big picture, is grounded, calm and divine. Nature, flora and fauna live here all the time.

McGilchrist argues the left hemisphere makes a very good emissary but a very poor master, and unfortunately it's been the master for a long time. You can see how well that's worked out. This is an example of inversion

We can flip from one side to the other in an instant. The secret is to be aware we are thinking, and who is thinking in the moment.

When wracked by self-doubt and panicked into a poor decision we may realise afterwards: 'Ah, it was an insecure thought. It was not me, not who I am, but another entity pretending to be me.’

What, or who might be the source of our insecure thinking?

I originally thought our life-force or soul went into our physical form at the moment of conception, but I now comprehend our soul goes in about two weeks before we are born – once we’ve decided this is the family we wish to be born into for this carnation.

There are many examples of parents being aware that their child’s soul is ‘interviewing’ them before deciding to incarnate with them—or not.

Once the soul is in it is followed by another spirit. Rudolf Steiner calls it the Ahraminic adversary spirit. Ahriman is a fallen angel. It is insecure and the source of our survival instinct. It fears death as it knows it must leave our body when we die. Our soul has no fear of death because it knows we are a spiritual being and live forever.

When we pass, psychics who work in hospice care can see the soul spiral up out of the body in a double helix and the spirit spiral down into the earth.